Here i am sitting in my Accounting class
Hunger in my stomach and boredom in my mind
I should be doing my work
but I'm two chapers behind so what's the point
That's what I get for daydreaming
That's what I get for bing obseesed
It's been two years now
We never had anything to begin with
I used to be a good girl
I was nerdy
I wore glasses
I didn't like makeup
I didn't do my hair
I never had a boyfriend
Now
All of that is the opposite
I'm superficial
I'm conceited
I like guys
Was it him?
Or did I just grow up?
Is it my age?
Is it my hormones? Is it simply the way of life?
I miss my nerdy days..
the simple days.
Where did they go?
Who took them away from me?
Was it him?
Yes, it was him.
This obsession.
I need help.
It's not healthy.
I should be doing my work.
I'm two chapter behind.
What is the point?
He stole my spirit.
And I want it back.
I need closure.
We never had an ending.
Yet, we never had a begining either.
Is he to blame
No, it's my fault...
I gave him the power to control my mind...
the day I looked at him and the day I answered his calls.