It's funny, really. How I'm lying here awake. Thinking of you. Thinking about everything I've done. About what we've been through. How much we've changed. Everything. Just sitting here missing you. Falling deeper in love with you. It hurts.. my heart is longing for you. The thought of being with you is burning me. Branding me with the mark of love. Pushing at the sides of my head. I'm lying awake wondering if you ever miss me like this. I'm sure you do. My heart is plunging deeper into my thoughts making it impossible to sleep. I'm tossing and turning and all I can think about is you. A rusty pipe in my throat making it hard to swallow. My lungs feel like they're running out of air. I'm silently screaming for you to appear. I'm lying awake only thinking about you in my arms. Yelling for you to fall into them. I want to see you. I want to not only feel your presence, but I want you to be present. A pillow sometimes just isn't enough.. My heart is pounding out of its cage like a newly captured bird screaming to be freed. I'm yelling can you hear it? Another silent scream escapes my lips. Things I want to say and do. Nothing ever quite comes out right. I'm a jumbled mess of emotion from time to time, pushing through and reaching for you. I can only think to hold you in my arms. My throat can make no sound. Hear my silent plea! Come back to me. Stay awhile and talk with me. Open your heart. I'm holding mine open. I need you.. hoping you need me. Where do these words come from if not my mind, mouth, or throat... can I truly speak from my heart or is it not open enough? Where are the words flowing? They're screaming for you... I want to speak, but can never find a topic or never find words to fill my mouth, so that you may understand how I feel. I'm screaming for you silently. Can you hear me as I lye awake, yelling for your thoughts, feelings, and emotions to scream back and tell me of yourself? Are you silently screaming back, and I just cannot hear? As I lay here lying awake... I wonder when we will finally speak freely with each other. Of anything and everything. Once again my heart screams to hear yours beating.. so close.. next to mine. Never giving out for a single purpose.. our love.