dads always look different when they’re wearing suits

but i won’t forget what yours did to you

the smell of apathy you sink your nose into

can only hide the truth for another hour or two

and your eyes are shining and you look like god

as you grab my hand and i drop my facade

your fairy godmother did a number on you

but it’s almost midnight and the music still booms

tonight we believe in god

tonight the cameras can’t catch us

tonight i kiss your shoulder as i leave

tonight we stand far apart

tonight i will make art

out of a room of people who would kill me

i hope none of your cousins can see my notes app

cuz i’d have a whole new can of worms to make you relapse

so i’ll write my poetry with my brightness down

i’m just like sappho if sappho was a clown

tonight you can not be helped

for you are not yourself

you are for everyone’s enjoyment

look at our lovely girl

she’s all grown up watch her twirl

i can’t wait till she finds herself a husband

i don’t mean to spoil this solemn celebration

just ignore me and my unholy fascination

it’s been quite some time since i’ve been in a crowd

i forgot how much i hate both fitting in and sticking out

tonight we believe in stars

tonight the cameras capture us

in our unrealized glory

tonight i will play a part

tonight you will be art

in a room of people who would hate me 

oh wow this is getting old

tonight you are dressed in gold

as your eyes tell a lavender story

i’m an upstanding gemini

as i lie and lie and lie

i fabricate just for the glory

i can’t love you more than these people who pour holy water on you

i can’t love you more than the poltergeist inside you

i can’t love you more than the god i’ve never seen you pray to

i can’t love you more than the rose that you are seen through

tonight i will play a part

tonight you will be art

in a room of people who would hate me 

oh wow this is getting old

tonight you are dressed in gold

as your eyes tell a lavender story

i’m an upstanding gemini

as i lie and lie and lie

and hope this doesn’t get gory